Yesterday my boys, Andre and Paul, received their Life rank in Boy Scouts. It is an amazing feat especially when one factors in all their challenges. Next up: Eagle Scout the final and highest rank. They are already busy deciding what their project will be. It has to be something that benefits the community. They have to plan it, fundraise for it, and organize volunteers to help complete it.
I have to admit I have been a lousy Scout mom. With all the other things I have done in the past or am doing I have rarely attended meetings and only occasional events. It is B who has done on a million hikes and campouts, attended every meeting, flipped pancakes for fundraisers, helped them earn merit badges and has taken a week off of work to make sure that the boys attended Boy Scout Camp. Without B, there would be no Eagles in the making. He has been there for years helping the boys to learn new skills and helping Andre when he falters. I am so proud of all of them.
As I watched Andre yesterday, his autism in full gear for whatever reason, walking in circles and shaking his head; I know that I have the Boy Scouts to thank for all he has accomplished. For all that both boys have. And while I have not always agreed with the policies put forth by the organization, I know that my kids have mastered skills that will benefit them in the future and may well save a life one day. In fact, Andre did earn a rarely given award, the Honor Medal, for saving a life.
So as they enter the final frontier of Scouting I want to congratulate my boys and thank all the adults who have mentored them and pushed them through. All those volunteers who have made Scouting fun and exciting. Because it is a joint effort by all involved and everyone involved are responsible for the fact that our soon-to-be Eagles are about to soar.
As parents we are always doubting ourselves when it comes to our kids. There are no manuals and every child is so completely different from the other especially when they have issues that other children never have to face. I know of what I speak. With six children I have learned much and each one has taught me in a completely different way. Yet, I also know about those deep, dark, slippery wells that you sometimes feel like you cannot climb out of when things are tough which often seems to be the case when your children have life impacting disabilities. It makes you question yourself and all you are doing to an even greater extent than ever before.
Paul struggles. He has autism and several other medical issues but his social skills are pretty much on track. Until you are around him for awhile you would probably never guess the extent of his issues and how they impact him everyday. But impact him they do. And our family too. Constantly.
Sometimes parents whose children have a disability find it hard to let go. Sending them to the store alone, even though it is just down the block, is terrifying when you know that your child is somewhat gullible and naive. But when the older teen years hit you realize that holding on too tight is a hinderance and not a help so you start loosening the strings. So recently Paul has been walking to the store by himself which gives him a sense of freedom that any 15 yo boy needs.
On Sunday Paul asked to go to the store. He had earned some money and wanted to buy himself a special snack… so off he went, hands deep in his pocket holding on to his hard-earned cash.
About 15 minutes later he returned with a perfect red rose in his hand which he shyly gave to me.
“I know I haven’t been treating you very well lately so I bought you a rose to show you how much I love and appreciate you”
I cried. He smiled and I think he knew that in giving me that beautiful rose he actually gave me so much more than just a flower. He let me know, that despite my mistakes and frailties as a parent, I really am doing something right by my kids. And even more importantly, I see him growing into a lovely young man who is doing good things like every decent and wonderful human being does on his own and without my help.
God, I love that kid!
Yesterday Paul needed to get some service hours in for Scouts. He elected to paint the fence at our church. It was hot and the fence sat square in the path of the intense rays of the scorching sun. Six hours spent working in the sun is difficult for anyone but even more so for a young autistic teenage boy with no previous painting experience. Fortunately, one of the older members of our congregation (R) was there to provide guidance and cheer him on.
I love it when old and young connect. There is something almost magical that happens when wisdom meets youth. Learning occurs in an unstructured setting and life’s lessons are conveyed easily. More importantly, both parties share those things that are important to them and greater understanding of the world and each other is obtained by both.
When he arrived home Paul was stoked and could hardly wait to tell me about his afternoon. But it wasn’t the fence he talked about. It was the connection that he made that mattered the most to him.
“Did you know that R served in the Korean War?” my sweet Korean boy asked.
“I had no idea,” I replied.
And so Paul sat with me and excitedly told me all that R had shared with him. Things about the war, what the country of Paul’s birth looked like back then, and how his life had changed because of his service. They also talked about what boys did growing up in the 40’s, how times have become more complicated and R’s ideas about the important things in life. But most of all Paul gained a friend. A man who could teach and discuss without being parental. A person with whom Paul could relate his troubles regarding peers in school and his concerns for the world as he navigates becoming a young adult.
It’s funny how sometimes in doing things for others you gain something special and totally unexpected for yourself. This weekend Paul learned from R the value of a friendship with someone older and wiser than himself. He learned to share problems and issues and listen to good advice in return. And more than just learning about how to paint fences he was also taught how to mend a few too.
For about the past ten years whenever I travel I tend to freak out before I go. While I never used to be… I am now scared of flying. My family expects this of my now and laugh at my trepidation. I originally told B I was not going to China with him because I had an overwhelming feeling of dread. So now, as I contemplate this trip I have decided I need to leave my sons my thoughts on what I think contributes to living a good life just in case I trip on a yak and fall to my death on Everest. I thought of all of these things off of the top of my head instead of consulting the internet so that is probably why the list is what it is.
For P, A and R… Love CLHD 12/20/15
- While most business transactions are no longer done with a handshake honoring your word is still the most important thing you can do.
- Look at the important people in your life. What do you admire about them? Why do you like to be around them? Take those qualities and make them your own.
- Saying, “Yes, sir” to your date’s father is a good way to begin.
- When you know in your heart that what you are doing is wrong have the courage to walk away even if it means leaving your friends behind.
- Whether you like it or not there will be a lot of people depending on you when you reach adulthood. Do those things that will earn their respect, love and trust.
- Don’t be afraid to take a chance. If it works out it builds character. It it doesn’t work out it builds character and you learn something valuable about the situation and/or yourself.
- Mama’s boys are a good thing as long as Mama is in the spot she belongs…behind your wife.
- Sharing feelings is often difficult for men. Do it anyway. Better for someone to know what you are thinking than having to spend all their time guessing incorrectly.
- Say “I love you” when you walk out the door. You never know if you will walk back in again.
- Never put “it” in a person you don’t want to wake up to everyday for the next 20 years.
- Having five children with five different women is cruel, stupid and condemns you child to less than a life he/she deserves. Be responsible. Don’t do it.
- Honesty truly is the best policy.
- Help others out when you can. It’s good for you and its good for the world.
- Be A Boy Scout. Be trustworthy, brave, helpful,clean and friendly. Doing these things never hurt anyone.
- Chivalry is not dead. Open doors for your girlfriend, wife and older women just because it is a nice thing to do.
- Be the kind of boyfriend/husband that every woman wishes her husband was.
- Sex is sex and love is love. Don’t confuse the two.
- Women are not a prize you discard after you obtain them.
- Too many notches in your belt only weakens the structure until it can no longer do the job of holding up your pants.
- Remember how you would sit for hours making legos. Find something that you love that much and spend time doing it.
- The way you act influences others. Act in the way you want to be remembered if you were to die tomorrow.
- Friends are important. Nurture those relationships and don’t abandon them for a girl.
- Have enough character to return the guys underpants that were run up the flagpole.
- Save for a rainy day. Cardboard boxes fall apart in the rain.
- It’s difficult when society says tough guy=real man. Be a tough guy only when you want to be and don’t be stupid about it.
- Bar fights are nothing to brag about.
- If you are drinking more than two beers a day you are taking away time from things that are really important.
- Two of you are a minority in this country. Expect to be stopped by the police for no real reason at all. Talk nicely, be cooperative, and make no sudden moves.
- Pick a woman who loves you boldly and completely. Make sure she is your best friend and has your back at all times.
- You will have many disappointments in life. Don’t wallow in them.
- You are responsible for your own happiness. Don’t put that on anyone else.
- Don’t follow orders blindly.
- Make a bucket list when you are young and work to finish the list before you die.
- You don’t have to change the world but changing your own neighborhood is something to shoot for.
- Lead by example.
- Don’t wear your pants down to your knees. It isn’t a cultural thing, it isn’t a societal thing…it’s a disregarding yourself thing which makes you look like something you are not.
- For goodness sake. No tats on the face. You’ll just look like a thug and most people won’t give you a job.
- You don’t have to accept a dare.
- It is easy to love in an emergency. It is harder to love in plain day to day living. Love like its always an emergency.
- When you are fearful keep going forward and face your fears head on.
- Drag racing can kill and often has unintended consequences. Don’t do it.
- Decide early on what is acceptable and what is not. Make a list of those things and stick to it. Then update that list every once-in-awhile on a quiet day when you have plenty of time to contemplate.
- Things will change with time. Try to go with the flow.
- Don’t make a promise unless you intend to keep it
- Your EVERYTHING MUST BE FAIR IN LIFE Certificate was lost at birth. You cannot order another one.
- Be sure to tell you wife two things you appreciate about her each day and compliment her three times a day.
- If you want a happy marriage YOU must be happy.
- There is no shame in apologizing. Don’t let your pride in the the way of being the first to do so.
- “Boys will be boys” is not an excuse for anything.
- There are girls that will love you, there are girls who will use you, and there are girls who only want you to be their baby daddy. Abstain until you know which is which and if you can’t do that ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS use a condom or two.
- Telling your mother when you are 18 that you are going to be a daddy will make her CRAZY…don’t chance it.
- Volunteer your time and resources when you are young. You are often more useful, you will meet some great people and someone is always needed to move the boxes.
- Don’t be a bully with your fists or your words. There is someone who will always be bigger and badder than you and karma will ensure you will meet them.
- Don’t be afraid to try. EVER…unless it is something stupid.
- There are people in life that want to bring you down. Don’t let them succeed.
- Canoeing is a good way to forget life’s troubles.
- Success doesn’t happen through magical thinking. It takes hard work, dedication and the willingness to be flexible. Do all three.
- Teach what you know. Learn what you want to teach.
- If you want to learn be willing to listen.
- If there is something you are good at work harder to become great at it. Anyone can paint but it takes dedication and lots of practice to be asked to paint the ceiling of the Sistine Chapel.
- Enjoying life means you cannot be a couch potato or a video game player. In order to get something out of it you have to put something into it.
- Save a life at least once during yours. Throw that starfish back into the water.
- You will probably change careers several times during your life. Do what makes you happy but make sure it pays the bills.
- Start investing in a job that has a 401 K and max it out every year. There is nothing more terrifying than coming to the end of your working years realizing the money you have saved can fit into something the size of a shoe box.
- Gardening is a good way to teach your children responsibility.
- Everything in moderation is still a good adage.
- If your first priority is to make your wife happy in bed you will reap untold rewards.
- Use deodorant everyday. If you don’t you won’t get the girl, you won’t get the job and you will have to shout at the people standing five feet away from you.
- Own at least one tie and one good pair of dress shoes.
- Believe in yourself and surround yourself with others who believe in you too. You deserve nothing less.
- Everyone has numerous strengths to draw upon. Find yours and improve upon them so that you know they are fully developed when you need them
- Read something everyday.
- Giving up and giving in too soon rarely accomplishes anything of value.
- Spend one day each week refusing to talk or act out of negativity.
- Be friends with those who are different races, ethnicities and religions than you. The blessings you reap will be a 1000 times greater than those first few minutes of being uncomfortable and unsure.
- The person who acts like they know everything knows nothing of true value.
- Real men ask for help (and directions)
- Vacations are important.
- Mid-life crisis’ are real. Don’t be a jackass during yours.
- Don’t confuse status with truth. A luxury car only means big payments and nothing about who is driving it.
- Your Dad was a great man. Take the parts you admire and incorporate them into your life.
- Make sure that the person you give your heart to really appreciates its worth.
- Having common interests is very helpful to sustaining a marriage.
- It’s just fine to cry. What you will learn from doing so will enrich your soul more than the tears ever will.
- There are times that your life will be beyond hard. Know that I am there in some form holding you tight.
- Keep your imagination open and running like when you were a kid.
- Never forget to put down the briefcase and play a game of hopscotch
- “If you can’t beat them join them” is no excuse for anything that happens afterwards.
- Fulfill your dreams before having children so you don’t resent them.
- Not everyone will like you. Deal with it.
- Be respectful to your elders.